failed to study last night after dinner, so I told myself to wake up darn early today to study MarketingFund, failed. woke up at 8plus to study but ended up surfing the net -.-" so left house to pubor's house & tried to study, ended up viewing other's blog -.- went down for lunch then left for school, studied in the library, questions came out were those that I've studied. but for that instance, everything seems to get stuck in the brain, nothing came out.. so I stared at the paper blankly for almost an hour with only MCQs & 2 questions done when there's like 9 questions?!?! (tell me I have all the time to do the paper..) since I can't think of the answers, left the room 15mins before the paper ends. what for waste my time inside when I just can't get the answers to pop out. damn it xMILLION!!
everyone seems to know how to do the paper, was utterly disappointed in myself once again. I know it's embarrassing to cry in public especially in front of so many people outside the exam rooms, but still I cried. I couldn't hold my tears back cos' I'm super disappointed. why did I went out to celebrate my birthday when I could have stay at home to study that darn marketing.. I'm so gonna prepare myself for supplementary paper, & FIY, if I don't pass the freaking exam & supp paper, I'll have to re-take the whole subject in year2. damn it xZILLION!!
I guess this year is not a good year for me & what's so big fcuk about turning 18. it ruined my grades for exams which bears so much more consequences than not celebrating the darn birthday.
tomorrow's BusinessAccounting paper, another darn paper cos' I skipped tutorials & there's still so much theory to memorise, like why must we know the theories?? I hope it would be an easy paper, wishful thinking.. I'm going to revise accounting for now, after the paper tml I'm so gonna enjoy myself & pray damn hard that I don't have to take supp paper for that as well.
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