so I went to jalan besar with mummy & dage for dinner, lor mee... train-ed to lavender,walked to jalan besar. took the long route there instead of the short one cos' they said this way is faster -.- bullshit.. so we settled at this table,started eating. everything was so salty,almost died there. then there's this aunty with her son I think,sat with us. the aunty is so kiasu lah, keep asking this plate how much this plate how much. just pay the fcuking bill & scram.. called dear,bought lor mee back for him (: cabbed home with mummy,dage went pub-ing with his friends. dear came,ate & left for home. he's got trng tml again, so this shows I'm staying at home,to study?
have been thinking through before posting, I'm starting to worry...
what if I cant pass my exams? I've got to take supp paper.. what if I cant pass my supp paper? I've got to re-take the whole module in my year2.. what if I cant pass my paper in year 2 with add-on of new subjects? kick out of school...
goshh.. wtf should I do? study?? study damn damn hard? but I cant.. each time I open notes to study, the next few seconds my eyes are fixed either on the tv or lappy.. I hate school, I hate to study, I hate to take exams.. can I don't go to school ?
I want to grow thinner.. I want to have long hair.. I want to have lots of money.. I want to buy my NUM flip-flops.. I want to get a new handphone, with great camera (: I want a best friend, a real best friend that I can rely on for the rest of my life. sharing every single thing,gossiping,same interests,same hobbies. just like Lizzie McGuire & Miranda, they're such good friends they go school together. I want a best friend, even though we're not staying close or going to the same school. we meet up almost every wkends just to catch up with one another's life. for now,I don't have a best friend I can rely on forever, none of my friends fit the above. maybe one or two, but they're not really my best friend. maybe not the best friend I always wanted. I want a bunch of sisters I hang out with all the time, shopping,movies,eating,screaming & laughing together.